What a year. . .

What a year this has been. My little 15 month old son is growing up so fast. I have been dreading his growing since the day he was born. I knew it would all happen way too fast! And it is he is proving to just grow just as quickly as his sisters are.

As the weather has been cooling off I have been getting more and more stressed with all that comes with it. Holiday's (our first with 2 children with food allergies) and cold and flu season. All this stress has been overwhelming.
First off I have to say that this last year has been one of the hardest years of my life physically, emotionally and spiritually. Not only coming to grips with the fact that I will not be having anymore children but also the way that came about. Time and love heals the later the first has come with realization that I am totally happy with the 3 little blessings that I have. My coming to grips with that was more realizing that it wasn't more children that I necessarily wanted it was not wanting my children to grow up. Not only are they growing but they are growing so fast. All I can do is hang on to each day as long as the day gives sun and make as many good memories with my children and husband as I can (oh and take 1,000 pic's a day ~ so I can remember).

Secondly the whole food allergy challenges we have had this year. They have sent me on a huge roller coaster of emotions since march. Thankfully I have found a wonderful support group of women who know exactly what I am going thru and that seems to help more than I could of imagined. It's kind of one of those things that you have no idea what it's like unless your there. Food allergies at least severe ones change so much of the way you do things. Before we knew about them we ate with friends or by ourselves on the spur of the moment but now that isn't possible with out preparations. This group of women has also shown me that it could be worse there are kids that can only eat 4 or 5 foods the rest are off limits for either allergies or celliac. I am mostly thankful that my are healthy as long as we strictly avoid the things they are allergic to they are fine. Now it's time for mom to teach them how to be safe for themselves.
Anyways, I unfortunately found my way to the bottom of my barrel and the One Person I can count on no matter what was there ready to take on my load. I feel so blessed that I can call myself a child of God. He is always there for me no matter what and is willing to carry the load when I just can't.
I am so blessed that He has given me a wonderful supportive group of family and friends that love my family and I. They love me on my good days and my bad days (sorry guys there have been quite a few of those over the past year). And I love them even more now for that. So please if God lays it on your heart please keep praying for me and my family. . .your prayers are working!
Goodnight my friends (((hugs)))