As I lay here wanting to sleep but not being able to. I do my usual and look through pictures. I always find pictures of Brandy and it seems my brain has always said. No its not real you just saw her . . .tonight I cry because the truth is its been 17 months since the accident. Longer than that since I've hugged her July 2012!!! Tonight I'm feeling every minute and every second of that time! My heart breaks. How why what good? All questions I don't get an answer to. All questions that burn and break my heart.
I miss her sweet spirit. I miss her advice. I miss her listening to me with care and concern. I miss watching her be an awesome mom. I miss watching her be a great Auntie to my kids. I miss her hugs. I miss hearing of her excitement over being a missionary to Brazil something I hardly understood but admired. I miss her smile. I miss knowing how she is. I miss hearing her voice. I miss feeling her love.
My whole life I can remember she was there. I am so glad I can look at her kids and see bits and pieces of her there. That was no mistake. I miss her but I am thankful to know I will see her again one day!
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