My Heart

I am so blessed I really know that I am! God has blessed me with a great family, a great church and I love my job!  God really laid it on my heart to spend more one on one time with my kids.  We have started baking and cooking together more.  Also because of all of the autoimmune things in our family I am working on learning and trying to teach them so they don't end up with those same issues.

Tonight we had a ladies night with church ladies.  It was nice.  I don't talk much in groups but that is just me.  I wish I wasn't like that but that is just who I am. . . anyways I was watching and listening to these two sisters just talk and have fun tonight.  Remembering old memories and just loving life.  They are young and just happy.  It really made me miss Brandy so much more.  I see all that is going on around me.  It's been almost 2 1/2 years I get that people need to move on.  I just never can I do not have my sister anymore.  Her spot will never be replaced in my heart.  I came home and was wide awake even thought it was close to 1 AM.  So I turned on my computer to look at coupons for this week.  I went to facebook and there was my very favorite picture of Brandy and I at the beach in Florida.  My heart just broke.  I miss her so much.  My life was better with her in it.  How can she be gone forever?

So I am left sitting here in my house, everyone sleeping.  I am going to go through pictures.  Memories that is what I have left and I am thankful for them.  I will find some good one's to get me though. . .