Two Months

My hands haven't stopped shaking today.  I am okay.  I think it's just the knowledge that it's been two months today.  Also Brandy's birthday is Thursday, Carolina's is Friday.  I feel like a horrible Mom because I just didn't plan anything for Carolina at all this year.  I told her we would do something when we get back from Oklahoma.  Also I am sure we will sing happy birthday to her and have a cake at some point while in Oklahoma. 

This is Brandy and Carolina last year with their cake my friend Rae made them.  

I am not even ready for Thanksgiving.  I would honestly like to just curl up and sleep through it or pretend it's not even coming.  It just feels like there is so many things coming up that I usually really look forward to and this year they just don't seem important. 

I know when I get to Oklahoma and see Brandy's kids and the rest of my family things will be better.  I'll make it through because I have God.  I couldn't imagine going through this without Him.  

I wish I could do more to help Chris and the kids.  I really enjoy seeing the pictures he sends me and his Mom posts on Facebook.  It does bring joy to my heart and peace to see their smiles and how they are enjoying life.     

Yesterday I met a very good friend and her Mom in Tyler, TX at the zoo.  I was concerned about my mood because on the way I just kept thinking about our last trip to the zoo. I felt like I was on the verge of tears most of the drive.  Our last trip to the Caldwell Zoo was in March with Brandy and her kids.  She met me there when they had a missions meeting in Dallas.  Brandy and the kids were free on Saturday.  It was the perfect way to spend a Saturday! 

It turned out to be a great visit with my friend Elizabeth and her Mom Becky.  We've known their family since Brandy, Amanda and I were young teenagers.  Becky's kids are a little younger than we are.  We went to church with them and have a lot of great memories!  

I'll post more about our trip and more pictures when I finish editing them.  I got a lot of cute pictures. 

Here is one this is Elizabeth and her nephew Kyler with my kids and I.