This Week

I know there are going to be tough days.  I expected them.  I thought I was ready for them.  I got sick with a stomach bug Sunday night along with Carolina.  Thankfully Carolina was well pretty quickly.  I am still sick to my stomach.  Caylea came down with it Tuesday she recovered quickly.  I am starting to think that it is more stress and the fact that I haven't left my house than the stomach bug hanging on.  I've used it as an excuse to sleep until 11 or 12 everyday this week after I get the kids off to school.  

I am having such a hard time with being here and being so alone and disconnected from my family.    

I know I could call some family members and I know they would talk to me.  What do I say though.  I don't even know pretend like nothing has changed or talk about it . . .either way it doesn't matter.  We are all thinking the same exact thing!  

What I do know about the kids is what I've see through pictures that people share on facebook.      I am thankful to at least have that. 

Today I got an e-mail from Chris one that he sends out to his supporting churches.  I am thankful I got it because it had information that I didn't know in it.  Well except it didn't say defiantly although later my husband read it and said it did.  I guess I am just not good at reading between the lines.  

So I e-mailed Chris they are planning to go to Brazil.  Praying about timeline.  

You know I had suspected this.  God wouldn't change His mind about Brazil.  It is what they were working twords and called to do.  I want this for all of them to be in God's will.  It's about God and the people Chris and the kids are meant to take God to.  

  I know I will see those kids and be able to watch them grow up but with Brandy gone I can't help but know that my relationship and my kids relationship with them is forever changed.  Not because anyone wants that just because when I am visiting Oklahoma (which isn't often enough) we won't be together almost the whole time.  Also when they are in Brazil I won't have Brandy to keep in contact with me the way only she would of.

Honestly I wouldn't even of spoken with the kids most likely in the last 5 weeks (well except for their birthday's).  However I have no doubt that I would of had countless interactions with my sister through talking on the phone, facebook, text. . .

That is really what I am really missing.

So tomorrow is a new day.  I have decided I am going to leave this house.  

Attached is the prayer requests Chris sent out with his letter please keep them in your prayers along with his family.

Prayer requests:

1. Souls to be saved

2. God to use our family for His glory.

3. God’s timing for our move

4. God’s help in our language studies

5. God’s protection for our family

6. My children